The Year Gone by….
Time truly flies, and here we are at the threshold of yet another year. As 2025 ends, I find myself looking back on a year that felt like an emotional roller coaster—marked by both highs and lows. As I bid farewell to it, this feels like the right moment to pause, reflect on the lessons it offered, and look ahead with hope to what the coming year may bring.
The Beginning:
The year did not begin on a positive note, either personally or professionally. Before there was any chance to recover from the emotional and physical exhaustion caused by these health challenges, the professional front added its own pressures.At one point, I completely lost confidence in myself. Self-doubt consumed my thoughts and made me believe I was incapable of doing anything right.
Losing Myself, Finding Me Again:
There was a time when I felt like I was moving but not really living. Caught between responsibilities, expectations, and emotional turmoil, I found myself slowly fading into someone I didn’t recognize. Somewhere along the way, I lost my confidence—and with it, I lost myself. In the thick of confusion and emotional fog, I knew I needed a way to channel my energy—something that would pull me out of my own head. I turned to something I had nearly given up on—my distance PGDM course.
The deadline to complete the two-year program was June 2025. By April that year, I had almost written it off as a missed opportunity. And yet, something inside nudged me: Why not give it one last try?
That decision changed something in me. For the first time in a long time, I felt the flicker of drive return. That flicker became fuel. The more I studied, the more I started believing in myself again. I’m proud to share that not only did I manage to complete the course—but I did it with distinction. It wasn’t just an academic achievement. It was personal redemption. It reminded me that I still had it in me. That I wasn’t lost. I had just stopped believing in myself for a while.
The End:
For an introvert like me, books have always been my closest companions. Somewhere between balancing home and work, I had lost touch with that best friend. Writing, too, has always been one of my strengths—it gives me the freedom to express my thoughts and feelings in ways I often can’t verbally.
I’m deeply grateful that 2025 helped me reconnect with both. It brought me back to books, and it nudged me toward writing again. In rediscovering these parts of myself, I found healing, expression, and a renewed sense of who I am.
Takeaways:
This year involved a great deal of thinking and introspection—analyzing the twists and turns of my personal and professional life. Through this process, I came to understand a much-talked-about yet often neglected aspect of life: self-love.
Loving and caring for oneself is not optional; it is essential. For someone as emotionally driven as me—someone who feels deeply—self-care often ends up being the last priority. The physical and emotional exhaustion that drained me and made me lose myself stemmed largely from a lack of self-admiration.
The year gone by taught me that I don’t need to change myself to fit into the world. Staying true to who I am and learning to love myself matters far more than trying to mold myself to suit the world.
As I step into the new year, I do so with gratitude—for the lessons learned, the strength rediscovered, and the belief that even after losing yourself, it’s always possible to find your way back.
There will still be tough days—I know that.
But somewhere deep down, I also know that when those days come, I won’t crumble. Because the strength I’ve built isn't temporary—it’s mine now. Quiet. Solid. Earned.
With tired hearts and worn-out views.
Yet every step, though slow and small,
Was leading me beyond the fall.
I found my light in quiet ways,
In borrowed strength and learning days.
I rose, not loud, but strong and sure,
Learning that healing takes its cure.
I carry hope, not fear, ahead,
The road is open, wide and new—
And now, at last, I walk it true.
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